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1. brandon Pepper on August 1st, 2008 5:56 am

   Hi my name is Brandon and I am bipolar.

   I was/am in a relationship with the only person I ever loved.
   First off I am a prick a asshole and unpersonable I have always been that way, I have always tried to change. There is nothing that i can do to permently stay that way. I have tried my hardest. There is nothing worse than trying your damndest a thousands time over and failing. I have hurt my loved ones, my wife, my family, my friends. I have never been anyone to be proud of, But still it was not for lack of trying. I take more than i give but i still try to give everything. I love my wife so much, but dont know how to show her, or make her happy. My daughter is my pride and joy and i see myself in her more and more everyday, and i can’t find the pactionce to play with her. When I think I’m doing good, Its just a little bit better than the worst. i have sevived addictions dead beat fathers, no fathers, broke, outkast drinking , heart attaccks, being by myself….. ect enculuding Bupolar, till now. My life has been a nothing but trying to make people as mirsible as i am, and sucseding I have finaly come to hate myself as much as every one else in my life has. The only option i have is to stop it. The only person that can do it is me, and i will. This is a brief summery of my life. ” the confessions of a Bi polar” I write this for my family and hopefully for some one to learn about this. I lived with this for a long time, the only thing that got me this far is the ones i love. “when they loved me” THIS IS NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN DO ALONE DO NOT TRY. IF YOU ARE BIPORLAR AND FEEL THIS WHY GO TO A HOSPTIAL NOW! i GIVE MYSELF AND THIS WRITING TO SHOW YOU HOW BAD IT CAN GET AND HOW TO SAVE YOUR LIFE.

2. Linny on August 3rd, 2008 10:12 pm

   I am glad to have found this website. I am 45 and have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar. A few years back I became very ill and found myself on a roller coaster ride that I hope to end sometime this century. I think I have been BP for a very long time but was treated for depression instead. This is horrible as anti-depressants are very bad for BP. My children are my reason for writing this post. They have endured me there whole lives as a single mother. They are the most beautiful and patient people I know. They have watched this roller coaster spin out of control and back in for far too long. For the most part we made it pretty good we had our ups and downs but it seems I held it together. Since my illness I have had 2 really bad manic episodes, two attempts at suicide, two hospitalizations. The last suicide attempt was made from my life being so out of control, losing the respect of the person I love more than life itself and an attempt for a relationship. The person I referred to is my oldest child, she has cut me out of her life as well as my grandkids who mean the world to me. You see people with untreated BP do horrible things and it seems we hurt the ones we love the most. We do not intentionally do these things, Lord help us, but it seems to me like it was out of my hands when I was in ones of these moods. I am not trying to assume no blame cause this would be wrong but if you have lived with a BP person you surely understand just what we are capable of doing. Before I became ill I had a thriving cleaning business and was at the top of my game. Now I sit living with my son because this disease has reeked such havoc in my life. I have not slept in 3 nights probably ed up in hospital again. They just recently diagnosed me. They still have me on an anti -depressant cause I was so depressed. I think I came here for some support. I have had no real relationship because we BP people can be quite mean and nasty given half a chance and who would want to stay around if they didn’t have too.This is just a look at BP from a person who has it.
   Linny

3. linny on August 11th, 2008 12:35 am

   I shared my story but do not see it here.

4. Jerry Wipf on August 11th, 2008 2:06 pm

   @linny: It is there now… Thanks so much for sharing…

5. holley on December 6th, 2008 11:02 am

   hello…this is the first time I have ever commented on a story or anything like this but stumbling upon this site I feel was NO couincedence….I can relate so much to the real life stories and videos that it sends chills down my spine.I can relate with your brother jerry,i am or at least i think I am based on facts on this blog,BIpoler.And you know today is the first time I can hosnestlly admit this.And i am scared…I am scared and embarresed.I am always apologizing for my actions OVER AND OVER AND OVER promising to be better promissing tha it was just a bad day,and i would feel like I was or am just totally off my rocker mood swings left and right coming in from left field for no reason or rigym at all.Hurtiing the ones around me who care.dening all that they have for me.THE LOVE.I often wonder when i will totlally hit rock bottom.I have not been able to face this problem of mine up close and personall.Becauce it seems to always contoll me.I dont know how to deal with it.And most of all how to pick up the peices of those whos hearts and feelings I have hurt done damage to….?I know people look at me and judge me say “that girl needs help” or “who holley,nah dont want to hang with her shes no fun,alwazys makiing stuff up in her head,what a drag!!!” worst of all I feel wrong wrong for being for being me.and now what?my life is twissting and turing goiing down hill.i am at my wits end.and so is the ones around me…hopefully things will look on the briter side,i guess they are already for I have found this website and fir this I am greatful.I know i can get the info I need.THnak you for letting me share.and for you jerry for sharing.
   your friend,
   holley

6. Jacky on February 19th, 2009 1:46 am

   My brother is bipolar. It’s been 4yrs since diagnosis and he has done nothing to help himself. He has lost all his close friends, crushed family relationships and only hangs out with drug dealers until they realize his mood swings.
   He desperately needs help but refuses to help himself and it’s killing me and my family.
   We walk on eggshells daily never knowing if it will be a good day or bad. Never knowing if he will lash out at me for closing my door or walking into the kitchen.
   I’ve reached out to him many times but I think I’m at the end of my support because it’s hard to hope for him with the destructive things he does daily.
   It kills me and finding this site helped me today. It helped me realize he needs my patience and support more than anything. It made me realize no matter what he does and how it compromises my life I have to help him until he is ready to help himself.
   It gets hard but I need to remind myself its just that much harder for him.
   Thanks for creating this site, and if anyone has any advice on coping with a loved one please feel free to email me: j_elfiki@hotmail.com

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